Scoliosis Diary

Kay, so I’ve never noticed pain before, besides if I spend the day stressing my back, but I thought that happens to everyone? Anyway, the pain is nothing. Its more an uncomfortable feeling. Like my back is tense and needs to be massaged or something. 

Here is what it looks like now:

I hate how uneven I am. Please don’t send hate, I know it could be much worse and I’m thankful its not, and I’m sorry to those of you who have it worse. I wish you the best of luck.

I always had issues with my self-esteem and especially regarding my body. I was starting to feel comfortable in my skin until I found this out and now I just have this urge to throw away every tight-fitted piece of clothing I own. I don’t want anyone hugging me because I’m afraid they can feel it and I can’t stand being back on to someone. I really don’t need another reason to hate myself, yet here it is. 

Dec.6th 2012

I’m turning 18 and I’m worried that now I’ll have to be taken off the treatment list for the local children’s hospital and put on a new one since I’m an adult now. I really hope I don’t have to wait 6 more months. The pain is getting worse.